I have to go to the office today, so get up early. I can see a few patches under my eyes and my temple where the skin is creamy having absorbed the Aquaphor. This is also the case on my nose. After showering I apply Aquaphor and go to work. Work is fine, but I get a few enquiring looks from the people at the other end of the office. My colleagues all know what's going on. Nobody mentions my face but they ask him I'm doing. I last out until about 12:30 and decide to go home. My fave is starting to tingle and get uncomfortably itchy.I go into the city centre to visit the Apple shop, in order to get a replacement phone for my daughter who dropped her's down the toilet. I get a lot of looks, they seem sympathetic and guilty at the same time and I can feel the awkwardness. Maybe it's my imagination, but the sympathy I see in people's eyes brings me down. It's like I can feel their pain imagining my pain. One little girl was saying something to her mother when I was in Boots looking at cream. Her mother quietly told her to shush. I didn't say anything as she may not have been saying anything about me. For the first time I feel uncomfortable in public and I start to realise how people must feel if they have some physical difference that other people can see as they go about their lives. It's something that most people never get to really understand.
I tried applying E45 soothing lotion this afternoon. I use this on my forehead most days to help with dryness. The applications only seemed to last a little while. When I got home from town, I tried applying a thicker layer on my right cheek below my right eye. The immediate pain was excruciating and I couldn't wipe it off quick enough. I will stick with Aquaphor and make an appointment with my doctor tomorrow. In the evening I washed and immediately applied Aquaphor.
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